I just got off the phone with one of Alec’s college friends who had a very first child the exact same time we had Milo (our #2) as well as he stated that they are expecting TWINS.
But I’m jumping the gun to make that part of my story. The genuine story right here is my absolute inability to pretend I didn’t want any type of much more youngsters last week. Theoretically, when randoms ask me, “so, do you want much more kids?” I ought to have answered, “heck no” in keeping with my game. however instead, I went with the long explanation over as well as over as well as over again.
Of course, now that I’ve changed gears in the game, I’m just as likely to provide the whole spiel, so I shouldn’t make it imply as well much.
When I believe about having much more kids in our family, I get thrilled to believe about the future future as well as having cheerful holidays with tables full of laughter; I picture three crazy however loving teen sons (yes, I can’t bring myself to picture we’d have a child many times — it’s either be awesome with 3 young boys or don’t play ball); I photo staring stupidly at a newborn as well as lastly letting myself delight in each phase since it does go by so quickly.
My second baby. might I do this again?
But then my mind leaps rapidly to the downsides of much more baby: fewer hours of sleep, less sanity, no me time, one more 5 pounds of blub that I may never shake shred. I try to disregard pragmatic concerns about money since I don’t believe these type of life-altering decisions can be made so rationally as all that.
And then I’m stuck around again.
The ill thing is that phone phone calls with Alec’s buddies make me obsess around once again (self: “oh wow, they’re going from one youngster to three, we ought to completely have another”). When irritating people ask me if I’m expecting (WHICH I’M NOT!!!!), a little part of me wonders if I ought to just opt for it so I can state yes. WTF is that?!
I’m not sure that this regular goal will be any type of simpler to execute than last week’s, however I’m available to evaluating the experiment as well as inspecting back in.
Am I overthinking this? Don’t response that. just tell me your story. Cuz that will assist me make my life choice.
Related: last week’s regular goal: pretending I don’t want any type of much more kids.